Broken Lullaby: New Adult Dark Contemporary (The Broken Duet Book 1) by Friday Burgess & Cynthia Ann

Author:Friday Burgess & Cynthia Ann [Burgess, Friday]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2021-08-30T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 20

DAMON

Pulling bag after bag out of Lily's car, it suddenly hits me what I've done—I asked Lily to move in with me. At the time, I weighed the decision for about ten seconds while standing on the sidewalk, still high from the way she ran and leaped into my arms. She was so happy to see me waiting for her. I honestly hadn't been sure how she would react when she came out.

Last night while I held her in my arms the realization crashed over me like a tidal wave—I’m in love with her.

Love. Up until that moment, the four-letter word has been something I never thought I would feel about a girl. I've had plenty of females throw the word my way, but I never felt it, never considered it, never thought I would be thinking about saying it out loud to someone else.

I am in love with Lily.

It's such an overwhelming feeling there is no way I can deny it, even to myself. I love Lily, but I don't know if she feels the same. And for the first time I feel bad about all the times girls have proclaimed their love for me and their declarations made me freeze, trying desperately to keep the horror off my face. That four-letter word has always been a death sentence to anyone I've been dating in the past. By uttering it, it usually meant that I would hightail it out of that budding relationship.

I love Lily, but does she love me? God, I hate feeling so vulnerable. And for a split second the desire to flee, to hightail it out of there was so strong. But stronger yet was the realization I couldn't leave her. She is someone I needed to be near. She has become a part of my life.

Watching her freeze when she saw me on the street, and then the smile that broke out on her face regardless of the horrors she had experienced, damn, my heart nearly burst out of my chest. It took this girl to break through that wall I have spent my life building. Lily kicked the ass of the piece of shit I've been all my life and made me want to be a better man. And that thought makes me feel even more terrified. Here I stand, moving her into my house, and I have no idea how to be this guy. The guy with a girlfriend that he adores, the guy with a girl who he'd do anything for. I've never been that guy, never wanted to be, until now. How do I even start to change?

My heart is racing thinking about having her with me all the time. I can't tell if it is a good feeling or bad, because I don't honestly know. I've tried my whole life not to have any deep feelings when it comes to girls. It has always been safer that way, not caring, keeping an emotional distance. And now that has all changed, and I feel panicked and out of control, as all these new emotions roll over me.

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